1. New Beginnings

I’m really excited about starting some new personal and professional journeys in 2024, which is quickly approaching! This blog is, of course, one of them, but I’m also looking forward to starting up my YouTube channel–which will be a bit more of a passion project–and working more on my compositions. 

I’m going to be trying to dedicate a lot of time and effort to furthering my career. Every year, I set a theme (more on that in my next post) and several goals for myself. For 2024, some of my music-related goals include: start and maintain my blog and YouTube channel; make career advances every day; and, the most important one, put in the work and love and passion to earn everything I want. My goal over my winter break was to do something for my career everyday and dedicate myself wholly to it. To be honest, though, that thought kind of scares me. I’m scared of putting in all this effort and still failing–just working and working and working but never getting anywhere, like trying to walk out of quicksand. However, I realized that I want to be a composer more than anything, so I have to be willing to do anything to get there. I have to step into the quicksand with confidence and persevere if I feel like I’m sinking. 

I’m also going to try to be forgiving towards myself. Certainly there will be days that I don’t get something done. That’s also been part of what’s holding me back: the fear that I’m committing myself to something I can’t follow through on. I struggle with time management and motivation because of my ADHD, and I often overextend myself not because I can’t say “no”, but because I really love to say “yes”! Which can be both a blessing and a curse. As a result, I sometimes feel like I’m the captain of a sailboat in a stormy sea and when my boat takes on too much water, I can feel it start to sink. I’m trying to push past that feeling and just keep steering through the waves, trusting that if I don’t let go of the ropes, I’ll eventually sail to safer seas. 

So, here’s to new beginnings, working hard, and more blog posts!